Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you...

...and sometimes Orkut helps!!!

I've noticed the new obsession with Orkut has cut down on (my) blog time! And just when I got back into the blog of things and decided that Orkut was the enemy... it worked its charm again!!

My last post is about several trips I've made to Goa over the span of my life time. And while retracing the memories I day-tripped through practically ever holiday I was there. One holiday in particular that stood out was the time I tasted Feni for the first time! And more than the Feni Tasting, was the fun I had with the friends we made ! But, for the life of me, I couldn't remember their names and felt pretty lousy about that... which is why I didn't expand on that part!!

YESTERDAY, the girl I was thinking off, scrapped me on Orkut!!!!! I just couldn't believe it. I've NEVER been more excited to get back in touch with some body ever before!!!!! According to her we probably met 14 years ago - I can't even remember the year!!!! After that first trip to Goa, their family visited us in Calcutta and she remembered all the mad things we did on the school campus we lived on - from my sister's flirting to sneaking into "tunnels" we knew were forbidden :)

Being in touch with her has just made me SO happy! Guess it brings my childhood back - along with the memories, is the mood - and the positive energy it was surrounded in! Needed that, had started to feel a bit blue this week! Ahhh... thanx Orkut, just in time ...my family Christmas season starts tomorrow :)

I need to Goaway...

Memories of Goa go way back to when I must've been about 2 - 3 years old. I vaguely recall lying on the deck of a boat sailing from Bombay to Goa with my Mum and Dad and sister, and a whole bunch of people I don't even remember. That memory comes with a little bit of unease... for some strange reason I kept thinking my Dad would roll off the deck and drown!!! Its weird but when you're small if you feel stressed about something, a lot of the time you (or atleast I did) end up keeping it inside yourself!!! Thats probably why the feeling still remains!

I also remember a HUGE house... that belonged to my uncle's ancestors. His mother was quite a grumpy old lady and I vaguely recall they had a pigs in the yard... I think... gosh I really need to reconfirm all of this with my Mum and sister! And a big dog I think... called Sultan?? Or may be thats from another holiday... a little confused.

More memories are from the years between 1989 and 1993 I think. My aunt and uncle were living in Goa and we'd visit every year - either in October or in December. These trips were in the awkward growing up years! I say awkward because we'd be invited to various family gatherings... and my sister and I wouldn't really know anybody. And worse still was if it was New Years eve... then we'd be dragged off to some Goan Dance thing!!!! And we'd have to dance with people we didn't know - very very very awkward - and the clothes, my gawd... what can I say we were victims of the ugly '80s!!! But besides this, that I now look back and laugh at... Goa was just spectacular!!!!! I remember having some of the most incredible times there with my family! Enjoying the sea and the waves and the sand! The first sunset I remember waiting for was at Baga... I couldn't move towards the car till I saw it go under!! Drinking wine and feni for the first time! Also remember going to someone's New Year party on a boat and drinking a my first whole brandy!!! And then being SO sure that I saw a jelly fish (or squid I'm not sure) swimming in the moonlight!!! Crossing the Mandovi in the car ferrys! Waiting for ages in the queue leading to the ferry... and sometimes taking my uncles cool car light out to cut the queues!! Cocktails and lobsters at some of the loveliest hotels and that too with my family - was just sooperb!!!

After a break of many years, my next trip there was on business... hahaha! And what a blast that was. Chinks and me and the Boss! Haha! To begin with my jaw dropped when I realised we were actually checking in to the Park Hyatt!! And then there was the phone calls to Chinks room to see if she had found all the cool things in the room that I had found!! The rain shower.... the doors that would'nt lock (which I've realised a lot of hotels are doing now!!), the sunken tub, ...and my gawd that bed was just soooooo nice!!! My only regret being, I wish I wasn't there on work! Anyway, things got better and better, because our meeting was postponed and we got an extra day to swim and drink cocktails, and dine at the loveliest restaurants, and go to the casino, and eventually get the BEST frikken massage that I have ever ever ever gotten in my entire life... whoaa!!

Then last year we were back there and I brought in dawn 2006 with Mr. Fingers, Ms. Kat, Mr.Cul de Sac, Ms. Banana and Mr. Heinkel! Couldn't have asked for more! We'd spent the craziest few days with Bert's family and the entire gang from ALL over and had an absolute blast! And that by far was my bestest trip to Goa.

The reason I want to go back now, so badly, is to redo my memories of that happy place and remove the not so pleasant reminders of my last trip there a month ago! It is practically unheard of that Goa could leave me feeling blue... but last month was one time that I was happy to get out of there. Tho' I will always remember the most spectaular sunset that reminded me that "this too shall pass".

Manic Monday...

I didn’t sleep too well last night and now I’m in a not so sooper mood!

It isn’t a hang over… just a very blah feeling inside of me.

George is here.

The wound feels a bit sore.

The numbness is irritating.

The only thought that’s worth a smile is that my Christmas countdown has begun!

That means I’ll finally see my new nieceling, and of course, play fairy god-mother to the big Pudding!!!

There are so many annoying questions in my head:

Why?

Why me?

Why not me?

I gave up on finding the answers, but the questions just won’t let me be.

... I wish it were a Sunday.

One month in HYDing!

Dear Faffers,

Its been too long since my last post!

The day after tomorrow makes a whole month since I’ve been in Hyderabad… and its weird how I’ve grown to LOVE this city! One things for sure the people are definitely more welcoming than dear ol’ Bangalore … in my opinion atleast. Over the last few years, I’d begun to think that my social skills were pretty much non-existent and that was why I’d given up on going out and meeting new people… but this month has proved that theory wrong.. and I do believe that’s because of the people!!!


SO much has happened in this last month that I feel like it’s been a much longer time. Packing my bags!!! Excess baggage – shitloads of it!!! Emotional rollercoasters! The sun, sand & sea! Skinny dipping! Wine – in large quantities! Cocktails!! Brunches @ Fusion 9! LOTS of phone calls home – I suddenly feel EVEN closer to my Mum and Anna. Brooding time! The art of make-up classes from Mrs. Tote! One walk at the Golf course! One Salsa class… and I think I’m gonna be a STAR!!!!! Some of the most fun parties (out of my own home!)… Diving into a swimming pool fully clad… high on life and wine and beers J …I wasn’t pushed in, I was coaxed in ..and I’m sure it didn’t take much!!! Its been a crazy month!

I’ve also realized that this entire year is almost over – and I’m glad it’s ending. It’s been a difficult year… not necessarily a bad thing, I know… but I’m not sure if it made me stronger… I feel weaker to tell you honestly. A little helpless sometimes. I think I may be a bit manic-depressive! But then again if I was Mrs. Tote is around to fix me!

There - this is probably why I didn’t post for so long… coz I knew I’d ramble… and here’s proof. Oh, also because I hate using this laptop… I hate laptops… I swear I do! I thought it would be cool to sit in a coffee shop with the whole Sex and the City thing going… but it’s a pain to carry!! Damn I’m losing it.

I won’t be surprised if you don’t come back here!!!

Tootles,

Tartrazina